Selamat Harijadi to You... Happy Birthday Untuk Awak

This blog is dedicated to a good friend of mine who just turned 25 today. Happy Birthday girl.

This girl is adored by those who knew her. Maybe because of her smooth grace, or her dazzling style that people find appealing. She who makes you glances twice to catch that sweet reflection. Ok, being so gay right now. Felt like wanted to dedicate this blog to her, for all that she’s done to me. She is a friend when I needed one, a friend when I felt lonely, a good friend indeed!

I guess it was destined why I remain single, maybe so that I meet other single people to rock with! Hehe.. But I guess it’s just odd why SHE remain single where plentiful boys out there who would kill to be liked by her. Clock ticking. You’re 25 now girl! Don’t be too picky and too choosy.
Those moments we had:

This is us during Planner Forum. Its like paparazi-celeb photo. Class...

Aku rasa sungguh ayu pada waktu ini. Hehe..

Ini kami lagi...

Anyway, Happy Birthday! I wish you all the best. Muah.....

Satu Lagi Crappy Entry

So, the dilemma ends there.

I can tell you for a certain now that IMN is no longer in the picture. But I wish him all the best with this girl whom I adore. I think they would make a good couple, or are they already.. Hehehe, the sore loser ME.

Anyway, yesterday, was out with Ja and Aima in Shroom for bukak puasa. I had to drag them since I actually had a date with this Indo dude, and was actually quite shy to just go out the two of us. (Can you believe that.. me.. shy.. :p) It turns out that he couldn’t make it cause he overslept, and Suraya also cancelled dinner cause her bf was too shy to join us. Men.. why are they such complicated creature?
Ed join us later with her bf. He reminded me so much of Veddervader and got me thinking hard. Could he be the one that got away? Was I just plain ignorant? Am I mean to do those things I did to him? Stupid stupid me…

My life has not been very interesting lately. Since it’s been budget cycle, I got stuck with pile of endless works. But it went well in the end. I managed to present to CMC and received good credit. At least I didn’t humiliate myself in front of DD, and at least the job is still on the table. I wish I can make my mark in this new position now. Don’t get me wrong, I do like what I’m doing now, it’s just that sometimes people around me complicate things. You would start feeling that they look down upon you, or disregard you just because you are new. ‘Masih hingusan’ la katakan…

I can tell you now that I’ve been feeling very down lately. The big BLW.
1. B……. The other day, my phone went off. Oh, it’s his birthday! I still can’t get over the fat that I got dumped. But, I was never angry at him. I guess I am just not that kind of person. I felt pissed sometimes. I used to over-work to get over this feeling of loneliness. Now, I am just too plain tired.
2. L…….. What is wrong with me? Not attractive enough? I don’t have great personality? The heck with it!
3. W……. I need to change job ASAP or I’ll be stuck here K

End here… Will stop posting this entire annoying story about me and my sad life story in the future. Again, a brand new muah (for how many times already)…
Suhana Sidik.

Status update: Aku kini di Dubai

Yeah yeah... I'm in Dubai rite now.

My trip to Sudan isn't as smooth as what we have planned. There was a windshield crack at the plane from Singapore, so our flight had to be postponed till 8 hours later. The great benefits of being in Business Class is that you have the chance to be treated like royalty. All your queries answered rite away. I guess spending the nite in Singapore wasn't so bad as we were given hotel rooms to sleep off the worries.

The trip to Dubai was marvellous. I had the luxury of first class upgrade! Plenty of food and freebies along with it. Our interconnecting flight from Dubai-Bahrain-Khartoum then had to be re-scheduled, and we had to spend an extra night in a 5 star hotel in Dubai. Another stamp on my passport! Me and Pokji somehow got lost in the city, spending most our time in the taxi chatting with the taxi driver. Interesting really to see the incredible architecture of the city. But the ghastly weather was too much even for me to wield.

I am now stuck in Dubai business lounge waiting to board the flight to Khartoum. Boredom struck. Tell you guys more update later.

ps 1: IMN called me on Saturday before my flight... yeah call, instead of the usual lame SMS. "Take care", he said. What the.... Why is he so nice to me? Guys..... So unpredictable. And Daisy, secret still yeah. Hehehe...

ps 2: PA to DD... Cam jadi aje. Went for interview with him on Friday, and he has already introduced me to other people as his PA. Ok... freaky.. Anyway, Pokji think it's a good move for me to join DD as long as there is proper replacement for my me in SP.... wicked.

Kerja yang begitu memberangsangkan

So, yesterday, Zana and Nadiah approached me and offered me an interesting position. Madi has earlier told me over lunch, but I acted surprise anyway.

There's an opening for the position of PA cum planner for the new DD, and they wanted to know whether I am interested in taking up the post. Me, out of all people! I'm freaking fresh from the oven (ok, one year in service already) and I am just holding up a seeding position. Am I qualified enough to serve for a Senior General Manager in the company?

I was uncertain. Reluctant to make any definite answer there and then and ask to come back to them. Would he trust me to deliver above expectation with the insignificant experience I have?

So, DD came up to our floor just now and ask who 'Suhana' is. I timidly answer, 'Saya'. His gaze lock at me, as mine to his. Eye to eye... 'We'll meet up later'. Argh....

I guess it's a good learning experience as he is willing to teach and share his wisdom & knowledge. Just a question of how patient he is, and how much more effort I am willing to put to succeed. Just as my life about to settle down, and I was beginning to enjoy life more, this opportunity came. Work would be more hectic.

So tell me.. tell me please... Is it wise, is it right for me to take up this post? Heck, I might not even get chosen after his small chat later on. Or, my boss won't freaking let me go!

Ok.. Go for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... Or not....

PGL Was Superb

Love is in the air…. Nomore.

I’m such a bad friend. I missed going to two weddings on Sunday on purpose because I don’t have a partner to go with. I ignore Veddervader completely when he asked whether I want to hang out. And I was too lazy to call up a friend to ask how she was doing. Overall.. total sucker.

Karma..

Yesterday, was trying to get a friend to go with me to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang. Been asking him for two days already and in the end, got ditch. Where are all your boyfriends when you needed them.

I can actually go alone and watch the show. It’ll be like the old days when I go watch movie, or the philharmonic enjoying the symphony… ALONE. Just that, I lack the confidence of driving after the accident. Hence, I can’t gather the courage to live life on my own thus far. I used to drive to Shah Alam ever week, sometimes twice a week out of boredom, but can’t get my lazy ass to do that anymore. Pure stupidity.

So yesterday, nak tak nak, had to ask IMN out (hehe). I need to state for a fact that he is the last person I want to go out with and I am not kidding. But yeah, in a situation like this.. yeah. So anyway, he said yes (my lucky day since he’s only available Tuesday and Thursday this week). I had to treat him for dinner anyway since I lost the World Cup bet.

Had to rush down from office just in time to meet him. I couldn’t be late this time! Need to prove to him that I am no workaholic and I can still live a proper life without working too much @#%w$er@#$.

So anyway, we went out for proper dinner. I made a fool out of myself when I used the wrong knife for steak and ordered a well-done steak that was over-cooked (that’s what well-done is Suhana!). It’s been a while since I last ordered a steak so my table manner was not too compelling. And we got into the argument about what a date really is. I really don’t think that it was a date. Friends hanging out after work is definitely not a date, right! He, who has not been a date (or so he claimed), got confused. And on and on we went. But I couldn’t resist bila dia suap the chocolate cake to me. Argh.. Hehe.. Nothing la. Saja2 aje kitorang buat lawak.

And after that, we went for the play. Since we were early, had the chance to stand in the lobby watching people making grand entry to Istana Budaya. No one caught his interest, likewise, so I guess it was a good start already.

Ok.. PGL… Straight to the point.

The show was superb. The prop was excellent, Gusti Adipati stole the show, Stephen really know how to sing!@!!, and not to forget the marvelous Tiara! Adlin could do better. I guess I expected him to do much better (I have a secret crush on him. Don’t tell him just yet). I was amazed to see the overall coordination of the dance and the play. IMN was constantly trying to seek the best position to doze off, and I kept disturbing him trying to make him stay awake.

The show finished rather late, past my bedtime! Luckily, I was still in shape to drive. Oh, did I told you that IMN freaking love Indonesian girls! Good skin tone, very bold.. definitely wife material. And there I was with mouth wide open. What the… And during dinner he told me ‘workaholic’ aint hot. So, I definitely am not? “No comment”

Guys.. Workaholic not hot ke? I guess I am fairly happy with the fact that I got a merit 2 for PPA since I’ve been working like hell lately. But then again, if I have no life, what is there to enjoy?

Nasihat untuk Teman

She got flare. She got wit. People turn their head when she walks. But why.. why indeed that this particular guy seems to not notice her. It confuses her. More of a reason why she is so into this guy.

It irritates her knowing that this guy is giving her mixed signal. One moment she is very convinced that she’s not ‘clapping with only one hand’.. ewah.. the next, he manage to convert whatever feeling there is to intense coldness. Born stupidity!

Off he went to ‘over-the-sea’ to check out other chix. And she goes on missing him. His last sms seems to cheer her up. ‘I might miss you, but sure it’s not mutual :-(‘ What was she suppose to think. Him leaving her hanging like that.

For some reason, she knows that they are not meant to be. Plenty of obstacles, plenty of reasons to hate him. But, what can you do when your heart long for that special someone, when you suddenly felt nervous around him, when you heart bit a ‘lil faster whenever he drew close, and when you try so hard to dress to impress. She, who you knows to be quite oblivious to others, would now spend the extra 10 minutes that she obviously don’t have to pose in front of the mirror. Bet he never even notice. And he might not even know that she’s a heart-breaker. And now, it’s her turn to get all jump up for another.

She told her friend that she’s going to forget this guy. But, she lied. He is still in her mind. :-( Why oh why….Is it because she’s lonely and needed the attention? But wait, he never did give that extra attention. He cares.. But, was it enough? Sigh.

I guess she’ll have to wait till tomorrow when he’s back (Or is he not?). She’s expecting any sign to indicates that she’s back on the game. But, he hasn’t sms her yet. Did he forget about her? .. And she really thought that he meant it when he said that he’ll misses her.

She hates him for making her feel like this. She hates herself more for being a helpless sucker and a loser. It’s karma. What you did to others… is coming back at you.

What can she do. As a friend, I can always advice her accordingly. But, I can’t help her much you see. It’s a matter of love, and only she can decide what’s best for her. Good luck dear!

Nak Promote Cite

My sister has been nagging and asking me to promo her latest 2 flicks on tv, so here it goes..

GUYS... Lock this in your calender and make sure your decoder is automatically set to this channel at this specific time ait...
1. ----> MONDAY 9 pm TV 2 - Rafflesia 2
2. ----> TUESDAY 9 pm TV 3 - Dua Hati

Well, life as the sister of a TV producer is not at all that glamorous. There were times when I followed her to shootings, mixing around making not-so-funny jokes with celeb, but it was not all that 'FUN'. You see different kind of characters these orang seni has. They are oh-so-nice to me just because my sister freaking produce the shows, but there definitely is some tension off screen. But, enough said.

It was interesting really to see the feedback that I got from friends on the previous show, 'Natasya'. I thought that the show was utter crap. But, people got attracted because the star of the show was the gorgeous Fasha Sandha. Typical male hormone.

For me, their previous soap, 'Raflesia' was a better show. Rita was a good actress, and the script was much better. But I must tell you, I don't really watch Malay shows. Yey, the un-patriotic Suhana. I can't really scale the show to the standard Malaysian has. Remember the ever-famous Sembilu? I thought it was a pure disaster, but I think the actress grab few outstanding performance award. Well, how wrong was I!

So, to those who have watched the show, feel free to drop comments/feedbacks and I'll sure to convey it to my sis the very least. To those who haven't, do .. do watch it and support the Malaysian movie industry ;-p.

Ok, before I end this, lemme post a pic of that someone :-0... Me lor.. yay!

Aku Bosan

Aku bosan.

Haven't been writing for so long, and there's so much to tell. But too lazy to start putting thoughts and experience for the eyes of all. And now contemplating whether I should go to PERMATA to kill off time or go paint someone's room. Hmm.. Tough choices.

Missing IMN still..