Satu Lagi Crappy Entry

So, the dilemma ends there.

I can tell you for a certain now that IMN is no longer in the picture. But I wish him all the best with this girl whom I adore. I think they would make a good couple, or are they already.. Hehehe, the sore loser ME.

Anyway, yesterday, was out with Ja and Aima in Shroom for bukak puasa. I had to drag them since I actually had a date with this Indo dude, and was actually quite shy to just go out the two of us. (Can you believe that.. me.. shy.. :p) It turns out that he couldn’t make it cause he overslept, and Suraya also cancelled dinner cause her bf was too shy to join us. Men.. why are they such complicated creature?
Ed join us later with her bf. He reminded me so much of Veddervader and got me thinking hard. Could he be the one that got away? Was I just plain ignorant? Am I mean to do those things I did to him? Stupid stupid me…

My life has not been very interesting lately. Since it’s been budget cycle, I got stuck with pile of endless works. But it went well in the end. I managed to present to CMC and received good credit. At least I didn’t humiliate myself in front of DD, and at least the job is still on the table. I wish I can make my mark in this new position now. Don’t get me wrong, I do like what I’m doing now, it’s just that sometimes people around me complicate things. You would start feeling that they look down upon you, or disregard you just because you are new. ‘Masih hingusan’ la katakan…

I can tell you now that I’ve been feeling very down lately. The big BLW.
1. B……. The other day, my phone went off. Oh, it’s his birthday! I still can’t get over the fat that I got dumped. But, I was never angry at him. I guess I am just not that kind of person. I felt pissed sometimes. I used to over-work to get over this feeling of loneliness. Now, I am just too plain tired.
2. L…….. What is wrong with me? Not attractive enough? I don’t have great personality? The heck with it!
3. W……. I need to change job ASAP or I’ll be stuck here K

End here… Will stop posting this entire annoying story about me and my sad life story in the future. Again, a brand new muah (for how many times already)…
Suhana Sidik.