AND THEN THERE WERE 3 ... OUR PRECIOUS MIRACLE.
..... THIS IS THE STORY
I cried for the very first time when they put Mikhael on my
chest right after delivery. It was very emotional. Hubby thought that I was
crying because I was still in a lot of pain. He calmed me down saying that it’s
all over, I have delivered a healthy baby boy. And then I watch as the baby was
given his injection and as hubby recite the azan to his ear. If only I can frame
this moment.
You see, I was not quite emotional when the doctor told me
that I was pregnant. Well, we were only half expecting after many failed
attempts. And again no emotion when we heard the baby’s heartbeat for the very
first time. But that very moment when the loud cry came, I surrendered to
emotion. It was all so beautiful. Aaron Mikhael is our miracle.
We had a tough long distance relationship in the first 2
years of our marriage. I was posted 400kms away from my husband, spending only
weekends together. After numerous failed attempts to get pregnant, I insisted to
seek help. I brave myself to seek treatment at UM Specialist Centre and then went
on to Tropicana to seek answers.
Strangely, none of the doctors found anything wrong with hubby
and I but he started me on Clomid anyway to increase my chances (secretly I was
hoping that I will be pregnant with twins). It was not after a few months later
that the Tropicana specialist found 2 large cysts on each side of my ovary and
scheduled me for an operation. And during that very operation that he actually found
out that I had endometriosis (which is when tissues lines the uterus grows outside
the uterus) which has affected my fertility all these while.
An operation that was just intended to remove these 2
non-harmful cysts that doctor said was not the cause of my infertility became a
life changing operation. We would never know I had endo if I did not insist to
go for the operation. And Alhamdulilah God was gracious that we found out later
that the company covers my 8k operation. Things worked out perfectly.
And this was exactly 1 year ago today….
I spent the next 2 weeks at home resting with lots of
well-wishes and people coming over to visit. I was touched that even abah came eventhough
he was unwell and been acting quite non-sociable. It was as if he knew that he
had to come to see me to show his full support. It was when he passed away a
couple of weeks after that I took that as a sign that I should schedule my IUI
right away.
I know that abah has long to see this daughter of his having
children of her own. The treatment took place the 2 weeks after he passed away.
And it was an immediate success the first time. It felt like abah was there
during it all, and praying for me.
Mika is God’s gift to us when he took abah away.
This is what a friend wrote to me after abah passed away,
“If we ever wonder why they left us too soon, we must
maintain a good opinion of God; be content; that He took them away when they
were the closest they had ever been to Him, when they were in the highest state
of spirituality than they could ever achieve. That He, in his infinite wisdom,
has chosen the best of times.
They, nonetheless, await our du'a more than ever. This is
the moment they need us most. When the bittersweet memories engulf us, don't be
overcome by grief. Muster the strength to pray for them to be amongst His loved
ones. With du'a, He the most merciful has given us a chance to redeem ourselves
to prove our love, if we had not been the best daughters when their hearts were
still beating.
As the tears roll down our cheeks, know in our hearts that
they have not left us; for we are moving towards them. They are more alive that
we are - that they now reside in the abode of reality while we remain in the
abode of dream. “
And when I look at Mika, he reminded me so much of abah. It
is as if he is still looking out for his children and praying for our best
health.
These 1 year has been a roller-coaster emotion for my
family. But still I feel blessed. Mika is our blessing from God when He took a
life so dear to us away.
Count my blessing … Aaron Mikhael, you are the greatest gift
God has given us.
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