Waiting to Exhale

It was supposed to start off as a pretty great day, not till I was reading the Sun today with its big header: Sign of Love.

Different people do different things to express their love. And this guy did it by putting up a giant billboard asking the girl to marry him. Cute. It only cost him RM40 K.

I spent my Valentine in the comfort of 3 other adorable friends. So, we were celebrating the Single Awareness Day, but they made it so much fun to be and feel single. Lefty was absolutely hilarious.

I had a chat about my personal enigma with Big Boss yesterday. I told him how everyone around me is getting hooked up, and I am still having a great deal of headache over finding the right one. They all give you the same advice and you couldn’t help but feel more let down.

I remember cheeky giving me some interesting quotes before, from the book ‘Waiting to Exhale’ that she was reading. Here it goes…

“Am I not a good catch or what?”
“We’re all good catches,” Bernadine said.
“Why are we all such good catches?” Savannah asked, leaning forward on her elbows and motioning for the other bottle of champagne.
“Because we’ve got good hearts and we’re good lays and we’re nice people. Isn’t that enough?” Bernadine said.
“Well, since you knew so damn much, why are we having such a hard-ass time meeting Mr. Wonderful?” Robin asked. Nobody had the answer to that one.

Yes, does anyone have the answer to that? People keep saying the same thing over and over again, and it is indeed non-reassuring. I wouldn’t say that I had lots of heartbreaks, but I did had a lot of almost… Period.

Few more interesting quotes:
“I know I’m not going to hear from him. And I hate the thought that I made a fool of myself. That I spilled my guts. Made my most intimate feelings known. How could somebody who acted so sincere be so insincere? How could he play with my feelings like this? I would never do this kind of shit to anybody. Never.”
- Waiting to Exhale, pg 368.

“It was my fault. I was the one who made the decision to open up my little heart. I was the one who said, ‘Here, go ahead and have some. Here, go ahead and take it.’ I’ve accepted responsibility for what for what I allowed to happen to me. I gambled. And I lost. But it wasn’t the end of the world.”
- Waiting to Exhale, pg 377.

Gosh.. It totally reflected what I’ve been feeling recently. Then this one:

“The ones that are good for us, we find dull and boring, and then we pick the assholes, the ones who won’t cooperate, the ones who offer us the most challenge and get our blood flowing and shit. Those are the motherfu*kers we fall in love with.”
- Waiting to Exhale, pg 324.

It got to me totally. And at the end, this is what HE said:
Quote from Grey’s Anatomy:
“Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life.” – Dr Meredith Grey

Yes, life was indeed wrecked.

Aku bengang.. tahap dewa

I am so freaking pissed right now. Here I am in the office trying to work my ass off for the company, but I was refuse entryto the tower. Why? They say that I am not dressed decently!

What the…. I am wearing my decent jeans, and sleeveless top. It’s not like I am wearing a spaghetti top in short skirt, or even a singlet with hot pants. It’s just the sleeveless top!

How can you define decent or not? Would this actually means that I have to be fully covered from now on?

Screw that.

I am just annoyed with the fact that I actually come to the office during the weekend untuk syarikat tercinta, but I was not even appreciated. How silly is that! I know how to differenciate decency from not. My brain is powerful enough to translate right from wrong k.

But I guess maybe that’s not the case for the guards, cleaners of those technicians working in the tower. They are just such a perv. Their hormone rushing with desire when they see flesh of human skin. Damn those perv.

I am still angry, and I don’t think I can work. Just gonna pack my bag and leave. Goodbye office. You had just lost one hardworking staff, and now I don’t care s**t anymore about finishing this work.