I think love keeps me going. The enthusiasm of getting to know a person, or the feeling of maybe there will be a slight chance of happiness would be all over me, hence the excitement.
I haven’t felt that for quite a while. I only felt heartbroken. I feel empty.
Furlong said I’ve changed. I think that is very much true.
I am tired of waiting. I am tired of getting hurt. I want to escape. Take a long break from work.. and people.
Sometimes I feel suicidal. I am not sure how I am going to live my life.
Thanks Wan for all the things you’ve done for me. If you didn’t come out as my savior the other day, I would have already done something stupid. You’ve been a great friend. But, why were we not compatible when you understand me so much? Ego got in the way? Did I ask too much?
A person would need a purpose of living.. It’s what some companies normally envision as their mission statement. I think I lack that. I need to have a strong purpose. I need to chart my future.
I am not sure what my goals are. I see myself as very simple, yet people say that I’m complicated. I think I sometimes think too much. I observe, and I put too much thought to it.
You need to just go with the flow. Put on a brave smile every morning, and hide your true emotion. I am already sick with that.
That is woman with emotion. I think my PMS got in the way. That is why this long suicidal note. Don’t worry. I won’t do something stupid, God forbid.
I just need that one sign that everything would be ok. I just need to be with someone normal right now to TELL ME that everything would be ok. I just need that moment in time where I KNOW everything would be ok. I just want TO FEEL that everything would be ok. I won’t ask for more. Would everything be ok?
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yes, everything WILL be okay.
don't sweat. don't pressure yourself. just live. and pray.
your knight in shining armor will come and rescue you someday.
but in the meantime, you still have us ;)
you got me too. even when u forgot my burstday! BOOM!
tak pe takpe..
:P
And me too (who keep on bugging u in sametime) thehehehe :):)
Syuk!!!
I am so sorry. I miss you too :p
Cool man.. cool man... Asyik marah2 aje. Nanti kena heart attack plak.
I am officially dah cool down! Because someone else is angry at me :(
i'm not angry at you pun
in fact not at anyone.
tamau la kena heart attack.
nanti grounded
:,(
thanx for da call.
:))
The truth is Chinese inject entrepreneurial and economic progress in South-East Asia. If the Chinese left Malaysia, your economy would be on the verge of collapse and will become little more than a backwater hellhole.
There are very simple reasons why Chinese do not fully assimilate into malay society. It is because the malay people are very hostile and disrespectful to the Chinese. It is well ingrained in their society, this anti-Chinese sentiment.
Also, given this hostility, why should Chinese integrate with your society? Let me tell you, it is a very simple reason. Unlike primitive tribesmen minorities in your territories, our civilization and culture is actually far superior than your malay culture.
We are the inheritors of one of the greatest civilizations in human history. Why do we want to downgrade our cultural knowledge and perception, and accept a backward and undeveloped primitive culture?
You Filipinos, Indonesians and Malaysians need to learn from the example of the Thais. They are friendly to Chinese and many Thai Chinese are very integrated and are loyal to Thailand. However, they also have links to China and bring the two countries closer.
Hence, China and Thailand enjoy very strong relations and all of this bodes well for Thailand economically and politically. It is no wonder Thailand has experienced a great deal of economic progress.
Too, I lived in Malaysia before and let me tell you that Malaysia is not rich. The government owes a lot of money to Japan and other countries. The nation is corrupted! In outside look, you think Malaysia is rich but the truth is Malaysia is very poor. A lot of projects have been cancelled such as new airport in Kuching, and etc.
Indeed right, in Malaysia the malays are like shit. They disrespect the Chinese. And you want to know why the malay government has money? It is because the tax! Chinese pay high tax to the malay government where the malay government even use quota control!
The malays given of special treatment, the government give money to the malays because without this, the malays will have nothing! We Chinese in Malaysia depend on ourselves! We earn money on ourselves!
The Chinese in Malaysia is dropping rapidly, one day and one day will come, when the malays don't like Chinese and riot, then we Chinese move away and hahaha! Malaysia will become like Indonesia!
Now look at your Indonesia, last time when Chinese there, the government can be rich. Now when Chinese gone - your country like shit! Hahaha! This is dream funny!
We have the tallest, longest, largest, greatest, grandest, biggest, everything; and now some record breaking events, falling, collapsing, cracking, bursting, break-downing incidents in new buildings. It is only the beginning.
Government forces us to learn Bahasa Melayu. Looking the fact today, what rubbish use is it? Do you speak malay in Australia? No, yes you speak malay in Indonesia, but who will go to such a moron country and have his career started over there?
Bahasa Melayu sucks, I wonder why we should study this language first of all. English is always what we want it to be as the national language instead of Bahasa Melayu.
Using English as an official language is the best thing to do, not for our own good but for your own good. Due to this stupid Bahasa Melayu, it distorted our English learning improvement. If it wasn't due to this language, my English wouldn't be so slack here……….
So now those Umno morons finally see the importance of English, but limited by their narrow mind, they only change some the media language to English in the education system.
20 years after the change from malay to English, they finally relalise that Bahasa Melayu did not bring any good improvement. But still in my school years I learn malay……….damn!
Second of all, you are very narrow mind guy. Why should one in this world be patriotic to certain country and be faithful to them? World is world, everybody in this world are brothers, is it necessary to say that you belong to this region or something or so on!
For countries like Singapore and western countries, they can have double citizenships, it is not a big problem at all if one's holding so many citizenships, because they understand the meaning about this. Only malays having such narrow mind would care about those things……….
Seriously, are you a Muslim? It means that your God says one have special rights than others?
Immigrants? I don't think Malaysia can achieve half what they have without the immigrants. Do you seriously think that every things Malaysia have today are the effort of malays only? Indians and Chinese never even done anything?
It seems like worshiping Allah give you malays a characteristic of humiliating and scolding others off and racist claim - sons of immigrants.
If there is a $$$ God, it will be better than Allah, the one you worship.
You want to talk about descendents? Oh, aren't you the immigrants from Indonesia? Whose ancestors are from Africa, who grand grand grand parents are Adam and Eve. After all we are still the same. Get it?
God damn it, after 30 years Islam teaches out bunch of people that are racist towards other groups of people? Disappointing……….
Tell yourself what can you do to the country? Do you certainly believe that people having same characteristic like you are the people who helped to develop this country?
I want your own opinion, you think this is fair? You think this is right? After learning Islamic teachings for so many years, you agree with all those racist policies and called other people sons of immigrants?
Holy crap……….all the years what Malaysia have are narrow mind cunts like you, you are no different with the Umno morons.
Tell me one of these government policies is wrong. Judge it! So you think that it is ok, if we don't like it, we get lost? Yes, I choose to get lost, I don't want pay my tax to a group of Umno morons to continue their unfair policies.
Not peaceful enough? What makes the Malaysia peaceful?
Of course Malaysia can still live in peaceful situation. Isn't African countries also peaceful? As long as you stay at home. You are peaceful!
Let me tell you my perspectives. This land should belongs to no one particular race, should be multi-racial. Should run fair policies which is not one-sided. Should speak a common language - English.
Sick anyhow, this country has no relationship to me anymore. I am in Singapore now, thank God. After graduation, I definitely get a Singapore PR and I will surely apply for citizenship.
Tired of people who keep avoiding the question. Vision 2020 going to be achieved by this group of morons? Keep on dreaming, don't need to reply my question.
Once I have enough money, I will move all out from this moron country. I know what you want to say: "If you don't like it, get out from the Malaysia!" That is what typical moron will say.
Bye.
I am totally agree what you have said, those moron malays have no sense of 'malu'. For example, I find that most of those malay pig creature are dirty and smelly, but they still walking around proudly with that stinking and ugly look.
Another example is most of them are poor, they can't afford a big luxury car. When they saw Chinese or Indian driving a big car, they are feeling distress and jealous.
What a loser! Hey non-malays can afford a big car without depend on NEP policy. But you pathetic malay pig can't afford it even though with NEP policy help. Loser malay pig!
If ever I would want to produce a movie of the old China dynasty era, Koh Tsu Koon and Ong Ka Ting would make perfect casting as the eunuchs of the emperor.
Just look at their faces and mannerisms in real life and you'd know they are perfect for these roles in reel life.
This is not a false perception as many posters here have similar perception of these people.
Other than carrying the balls of the power bearers and keeping mum on issues affecting the Chinese community, these seemingly emasculated people are always seen having a gayest time showing their faces in the papers.
The voters just have to waken up for the next elections. Enough of Eunuchs!
Malays are lazy, narrow-minded, racist, in the real world. But they blame Chinese, Indians, white man, for many things. No wonder many person label malays as disgrace animals.
It is good for malays to go back to jungle of Africa, in order to avoid so many problems. Enough said.
Like what one said, your Umno malays label is to just rob the rights and benefits of the unassuming and poor malays, who think that you are fighting for their cause. Whom are you trying to bluff?
There is nothing to be proud of Ketuanan Melayu. If at all, it is only the personification of the ills facing the malays in general today.
Minus the nation building and economics, you Umno malays are left with only politics - right before and after independence. Creeps like you should find out and address this: talked and discussed corruption problem which does not seem to go away.
If even after almost 50 years, and after all the generous handouts, you are still a bitter man, lamenting at our Indians and Chinese successes, then go back and do a bit of homework to find out, why you need to work more and talk less.
Everyone knows that they worked and struggled to build a nation, I mean sweated it out. Lest you forget history, the Indians and Chinese came here to build a country which was largely neglected. Ask yourself why?
Their sweat and pains may have been forgotten by selfish creatures cloaking in disguise in the likes of you malay, but this Malaysia nation shares a rich history of the "other races" contributing to the nation building, which you cannot be proud of.
Well, there are always guys like me who have tried and have been continuously denied the opportunity to "serve" this country, basically with the race card thrown at me.
Look around yourself and tell me as honestly as you can - be whether under such circumstances, I would have reasons to love this country? Unless you have a different definition for that word "love"!
To further prolong the grips of the Umno malays over the greed others, especially the Chinese, is been made the scapegoat for all things.
A fear that had has no concrete socio-economical standings. It is more psychological. For that all the Malaysians are been pull and push into the self-dug hole of only Umno ketuanan matters most. All things are secondary.
He forgets that what he has been written is just like the saying: spitting skywards and get own face smeared.
Such a mind is wasted by simple form rather than the deep down substance, show this guy's mind is as twisted and empty.
The saddest part is that Umno fanatic can write better, indicating a higher level of "education" but more tunnel understanding of historical facts. His education is wasted, and another basket case of form over substance.
From what Umno malay fanatic has been written, it can be seen that these malays are still at the balls despite of the facts that, the globalization will eventually making their factitious claim obsolete.
Many would like to dispute and point to whatever reports that claimed glories for all the developments stated for Malaysia now. There is only one word for this spurious cry - form over substance. Please think deeper to reflect this.
Just think about how Philippines go down the drain under Marcos government. Sadder still, we are not catching up with the top.
Instead we keep comparing ourselves with the bottom and sliding down the rank as we "proudly" proclaimed these achievements. How pathetic can one be!
The facts:
(1) Orang Asli Negritos are the first inhabitants in this land
(2) Proto malays came from Yunan in China
(3) Deutro malays came from Indonesia
(4) Malays are Hindus/Buddhists for 2000 years
(5) Harun and Razak plot the 1969 riot
(6) Social contract rewriting after 1969 riot
(7) Bumis term never exist before 1969 riot
(8) lie - Blame Chinese control economic 70%
(9) lie - Blame Chinese/Tamil schools for national disunity
(0) lie - Blame Singapore government suppress malays
(Many more.)
I feel I am not very comfortable with Indonesia. The government, when think of it, it is also quite funny.
First, they don't want Chinese to be in their country. Good, kill Chinese and get them out of the country. After when they are no Chinese in Indonesia, now look at the country - A junk country. Useless currency, the country is overpopulated with uneducated peoples.
No more Chinese in Indonesia mean no one do business there. Because 70% of the economy are control by Chinese. In addition, majority of the companies are own and run by Chinese.
And you? You are just a person filled with racial jealousy. Proof? Why should we prove anything to you? We are a prosperous and rich race, I couldn't care less if dirt crawler like you don't believe it. Back to the hole you came from!
Malays, you are in denial. You want evidence? Just open your eyes and see! All around you, in China, in Indonesia, in the TV, on the streets, everywhere! Chinese are superior money makers!
Ha……….it is not about boosting our ego. I mean why would we have to? We have so much to be proud of already. It is a matter of truth.
I am sorry if you can't take the reality that malays aren't the ones who control a good amount of economy in South-East Asia. But it is not like you don't have anything to be proud of.
I am not thinking that our race is the best. I am talking the truth. Look at Indonesia before the riot, the country is stable and well. But after they have thrown all the Chinese away, the country has fallen. And lots of poor peoples there. The logic is already able to tell you.
Hahaha! Despite living in Malaysia, I already have second home in Perth. Why should I must live in Malaysia! What a fool!
I will pay loyalty to Australia. Why should I pay my loyalty to country like Malaysia which only care about their own ass malays? Where Chinese are treated as second class citizens there!
Why should I care about your peoples, and also I don't care about your peoples anymore. Because I am spending more time live at Australia. One day you will see your country become a second Iraq and collapse. You will see the time will come.
Malays, stop your stupid thinking. The truth is the truth. One more thing, you make the laugh when I think of, you can't even compete with the Chinese! Most Chinese think that your kind is crook. If you know where what I mean.
Your anti Chinese thinking will never improve your peoples. You should look into yourself before you insult other races.
You can't even compete with the Chinese, my friend. We are everywhere. Doing business, earning money. Anti Chinese is always anti China. Every word is against the China. Even China become superpower, you will find something to say China is bad. Ha!
It is extremely unwise for a Chinese to flaunt his wealth in Indonesia. He should have kept quiet about his wealth and stash away his money in a hidden Swiss bank account.
A country is poor because of its own faults, don't blame others. China was extremely poor until the 1980s when it decided to drop its arrogant ideal and open its economy.
For example, if you want to be rich. What are you going to do? Of course, think logic and hard working. That is how a businessman will success. Don't blame anyone else if you are poor. Blame yourself for not smarter enough and work harder to be rich.
This is different - Chinese success in Indonesia, where the malays start killing Chinese is because of jealousy. And Indonesians should stop blaming Chinese for monopolizing the economy, because Indonesians themselves are quite lazy compared with ethnic Chinese.
What do you expect, his Indonesia homeland is weak and the peoples are poor. His culture stays in the bottom of the world. Maybe he should look into himself before commenting other races. What a shame!
But come on, Chinese culture is obviously superior to those countries in South-East Asia such as the Indonesia, Malaysia and Philippines.
China has had an ancient civilization and a long commercial tradition. It is no coincidence that Chinese have uniformly dominated the economies of this region for so long. It is a cultural difference, not a racial one.
If Indonesia, Malaysia and Philippines adopt Chinese culture and become Chinese way, they would be just as successfully. It is a matter of cultural values and a certain worldview.
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