Carca Merba - Esok Cuti Yeay!

I couldn’t start my work since morning, and felt quite clueless really. Had the normal early morning coming to work at 730 (but as usual, my collegue beat me to it by coming much earlier at 630) feeling famished. Aiman is in Maya, so I had to resort to IA for a quick nutritious breakfast. Well, you wouldn’t say that its nutritious when I had the nasi lemak feast on Level 4.

I haven’t been going to the gym for about a month now, ever since my brother had the accident. Had to go home and care for him (more of a reason really, since I hardly do that now) and focusing on some other ‘commitment’. Haha..

Anyway, I really couldn’t start doing work after breakfast. The nasi lemak really got to my brain; closing all the pro-active nerves eager to do some real work. So, I have been writing some emails, reading some SPE Salary reports (which says that South East Asia worker’s getting paid the lowest – expat with the same qualification and experience level gets paid 4 times more than the local), and reading & installing the new P6 software worth 20K that I just got from the supplier. The freaking 4CD + 1 DVD which does not even have any proper hard-copy manual (Go Green!) cost the company 20K, pending the other 80K PertMaster software which will come sometime in June. Gost, that’s like my 2 years salary on the table. Lose it and expect zilch salary for the next 24 months of your life. Unless of course my beloved Pet gives a 12 months bonus for its miraculous achievement this year – Oh wait, even if that happens, I still would be working without pay for the next 1 year of my career. Ok, I’ll lock up this software someplace safe…

Anyway, went to a friend’s wedding on Saturday and Nely … CONGRATS!

Mr Auditor, Nely & Hubby, Suhana with short hair (damn it, i've revealed myself)

Something for u guys... Muah Muah.
Two souls with but a single thought,Two hearts that beat as one.
Friedrich Halm

Live life that matters.. for a season.. a lifetime...

I’ve got so much to do today, but was just not in the mood. Earlier today, I attended the HR challenging session so my brain was pretty much exhausted. But that was not the reason for the sudden mode of depression.

I guess when things are not meant to be, you just have to accept it the way it is. You keep yourself reminded that no matter what happens, you need to carry on with your life full of anticipation.

Live life that matters.. for a season…a lifetime..

So cai yok! Let’s talk about some good stuff…

A very good friend of mine got engaged recently, and we were all pretty much excited about it. Everyone was clad in black (which of course does not include Edd who likes to look different at times :p), and looked as hot and delicious as always.

Flower girls.. or not.. haha
So dear Jajabeng, here’s something for you:
When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. I guess this is that small step to eternity with Jumy. Fear not, as we will always be here for you.. all times. They say that your life is never complete, not until you are married that is. All the joy and happiness ahead awaits. We’ll throw the best bacheloret party for you this year and even after, we would still stand by you through all the troubles of planning the wedding. What are those planning skills for, if it is not used for good advantage.

Some wise wise woman (obviously) said this:
A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. ~Mignon McLaughlin

All the best dear!

Remember.. Live a life that matters… for a season.. a lifetime..

Indah ke Perkahwinan?

“Too often, the thing we want the most is the one thing we cannot have. Desire leaves us heartbroken , it wears us out. Desire wrecks our life”
Dr Meredith Gray

That was the ultimatum that I had the other day.

There has been so much unhappiness around me lately that I decided that yesterday was the much needed break that I want. Ignore the fact that it was my birthday; I felt that I needed time to reflect upon my life.

I guess I should be happy that I am still non-committed to a single soul. When friends pour out their relationship issues, I feel content that at least I do not have to deal with such heartbreaking dilemma. At least some part of it is true.

We are fools when it comes to love.

We marry young when we think that fulfilling our sexual drive is with utmost importance. Sometimes we succumb to the peer pressure or the longing of our partner for what they say ‘better future’.

Recently, I learned that marriage lives are not all that rosy and wonderful. When I should empathized with the torment my friends are suffering, I feel glad that I did not have anyone to angst about. (Well, who would want to marry me at this state of mind anyways?)

Why make such rash decision about marrying someone when you have a slight doubt about each other. When my best friend got married this year, I asked her over and over again, “Are you sure?” (sorry dear I had to use you as an example, but the fact that you don’t blog and no one knows you made it easier to blog about you. Haha. Forgive me later). They’ve been fighting for as long as I known them made it much harder for me to digest the fact that this girl who’s been my childhood friend is tying the knot with a guy whom she often cries over. But I guess their love for each other was stronger than the petty little things that they fight over.

Some friends of mine didn’t able to hold that love after marriage. What happen in between? Simple.. Men change after they got married.

Male egocentric.. chauvinist… all of the above.

The first half of the year was full of joy and happiness of knowing that your friends are getting married, but lately I have been listening about what he didn’t do, or what he has became after they are legally married. World is so twisted.

We don’t really know our partner very well that when we felt that we’ve made one big mistake, there is no turning back. Before this, there always were the third wheels when we get into a fight, but after married, you are forbidden to tell tale of your marriage to a single soul. Berdosa namanya. In other words, no more bitching about men to your girlfriends, or seeking advice from your male counterpart.

I guess I am never suited for married life, as I fear the commitment I am putting myself into. It’s not that I do not believe in the marriage institution, but is there such magic that led you to believe that investing your whole life to just one person would be wise? What is it likes to love someone madly, that you are willing to wake up next to the same person every single morning?

Sometimes we get married because we needed security. He may not be the one whom we have fallen madly in love with, but the one who would be willing to love us for the rest of their life. Question, should we choose the one who’d love us unconditionally, or the one whom we really long for? Which brings in more happiness?

After talking to a few married ladies, I feel scared about the idea of getting married. If I do get married, I feel like I would go cold feet right before one. Heck, I might not get married, and it scares me more. I am not sure what I want in life, and that is just silly of me.

But maybe its because I have not find the right person for me to spend my whole life with.

Wait, retract that. I have, but he’s non committal.

If he asked me to marry him, I might even give my consent right away. Well, if only…

So, what does that leave me?

A woman with lots of choices?

Girl power?

Oh.. Kahwin Lagi?

So Pak Lah and Jeanne got married. Me and dd were in Putrajaya, and decided to stalk the wedding. We drove up to Kompleks Seri Perdana, but got nowhere near the action.

Weird thing why everyone chosen yesterday as THE day to tie the knot. I had three invitations, all in Kelana Jaya, Cheras and Kedah respectively. dd got another two in Putrajaya and Tabung Haji. We ended going to the one in Kelana Jaya, Putrajaya and Tabung Haji. Berkenduri dengan jayanya as some might say.

Everyone with their perfect ending. Isn’t life great this way.

So, talking about marriage… I was thinking that maybe 20.08.2008 is a good time to get married. But, yeah, it’s too soon. So I guess 20.10.2010 is a great timing as well. Haha. At least I’ll be 27 then.. matured and ready to get married. No rush… Boo!

Oleng & Hariz... Congrats guys

So, this very good friend of mine dah kahwin over the weekend. It was such a long journey to Kluang, which i really underestimated. I thought 2.5 hours sampaila. Actually, it's more of a 4 hours drive there.
Dahla Seremban jam gila cause apparently ada trailler yang terbalik. Fuhh.. Luckily i decided to ask Kimi whether bley join diorang drive down to Kluang. Kimi yang cuak kena gossip with me (ehem orang dah ada commitment) decided to ajak Wira to join me in the car.
But it was fun. At least like Wira said, dapat kenal kakak angkat sorang... ops... Hello.. I am not that old ok. Oleng pun kahwin ngan your friend, even with the two years age gap.

Anyway, i had lots of fun. And people keep bugging me with the lame question of "bila your turn?" I cakap.."Pakcik/makcik (in that context) doa2kan la untuk saya", or bila malas gila I will say, "Insya Allah next year".. Muahahahhaha...

So one friend got married! Congrats girl! Muah

Gambar pada malam pernikahan. Oleng memang nampak ayu sangat malam tu.. Bestnya kahwin. Memang berseri2.

Inilah saat2 mendebarkan semasa Oleng ditanya Pak Kadi.. Nak kahwin dengan Hariz tak. Haha.. Camne kalau dia cakap taknak. Takke skandal namanya. Then nak sign tu, mesti terketar gak. Seumur hidup ni. First time tengok sign depan mata.
Ahh.. Comelnya. Memang gambar paling best sekali..

Inilah kami.. Serius bidan terjun.. Tak tau plak malam tu kena jadi pengapit.. so memang tak sedondon. And Oleng & Hariz pakai baju merah kuning lambang kebanggan Selangor. Hahahaha..

Me and Kimi... the pengapit. Apa la Kimi.. tak sedondon langsung.. Hahaha.. Takpe, kira still matching la tu.. Hey, congrats la. Kata nak bertunang bulan 7 nanti. Cis.. Lagi awal dari aku..

Kami2 semua selepas makan dengan kenyangnya... From left Fahrin, Nizman, Faiz, Kimi, Wira, Hilman, Suhana and Hatta (sitting). Oh kali ini me and Kimi sedondon. Tapi tak nak amik sebelah2, takut kena gossip :p

The team and I with the pengantin.. I miss those guys. Hahaha

Me and Oleng just before I left for Kuala Lumpur. Sangat yuppies.

Anyway, the drive to home took about 7 hours. We left at 5pm, and i arrived home at about 11.30 pm. Penat gila. Apparently KL banjir.

This was a good road trip. The guys were funny (we had lots of those cerita cinta yang will stay in the car for good). You guys rock la. Ke I memang dah jadi one of the guys. Coolness ~~

Siri pertama: Sebelum dan semasa Nikah (TRIBUTE TO FIZA &YAHYA)

So, my very good friend got married, finally!

Part 1 of the wedding (too lazy to wait to upload all pictures up to her sanding, because this internet in Starbucks is too freaking slow)....

So, wait for the 2nd installment where yours truely is the sweet pengapit. Muahahahaha...

Fiza getting her inai done. Yours truely also had hers done. Konon nak dapat the same aura. Maybe, I'll be next. Hehe.....

Semasa diandam oleh 2 'mak-andam', seorang yang sungguh senior, manakala seorang lagi yang sungguh kacak, tapi sayang, .... sayang seribu sayang...

Waduh2... she looks so pretty.....

During the akad.... Yahya had his akad sekali lepas aje... but in English.. obviously.

Wong and myself.... Terharu sungguh dia datang.. finally.

And all the kids were like... Abg Spider! Abg spider...

The gang... Ala.. comelnya anak Zul!!!!

So, first installment done. Fiza yang sungguh lawa, dan Yahya yang sungguh hensem.

Ok.. next installment coming......................

Selamat Belated Pengantin Baru, Am!

Was browsing through my photo collection and stumbled upon this. My good friend, Amran from way back in Australia... Congratulations... Selamat Pengantin Baru (its 3 months late, but still...)

Lawa sungguh gadis ini

Segak sungguh si pengantin lelaki ini...

Guys...Selamat beranak pinak!!