Saturday, April 11, 2015

Baby is Coming .. So When do the Tears Come?

The 2 most anticipated pregnancy moment eagerly awaited by expecting mom is to hear that first heart beat and baby’s first kick. I was excited yes, but there was no teary moment or that sappy sentimental mode that lasted for days.

You see, we waited so long for the baby that there was supposed to be drama ensued. Instead we looked at the doctor half disbelief. Like when he told me, “Puan Suhana, you are pregnant” with that straight cold face, the first reaction that came out of me was, “Are you sure?”, “Oh ok”. It’s as if you are replying to your boss or just another colleague that emotionless “Noted with thanks” instant reply, just to formally capture an acknowledgement of a response back.

I am still waiting for that heartbreaking teary moment where I would burst into tears, but we have been handling this with a lot of calmness. Yeay, baby is coming. Now let’s start planning this… and that… and yeah those too.. and why not that…. It seems like this has not sunk in yet.

Maybe later, when the back pain is unbearable and there shall be more crams at nights to wake up for. Or when I would eventually stop my planning-mode and just enjoy every single baby’s movement, maybe the tears would come … eventually.  


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