Toastmaster - Hidup Mesti Terima Kegagalan

Sometimes in life you just have to learn to accept the fact that life does not always treat you fair, and learn to handle resentment as ethical as you can. Sometimes you must not take things too personal and accept what fate has chosen for you.

I was furious at the fact that I lost, cause I thought I had it pretty much bagged and ready to go. Luckily I didn't show the sign of pure bliss of confidence, else, I would have stormed out of the room deniably claiming my ‘lost’.

Ok, so there I was rewinding the moment, rethinking about . What did i do wrong? How could I have been ONLY second best?

Everyone congratulated me on a speech well done, and some said that I should have won. I gave a fake smile and gave the humble answer where I don’t think I was not good enough to begin with. Secretly I knew I was not making sense. If only you were there, you could see that I have moved leaped from my early un-confident speech. I have transformed myself. It was shaky at the beginning, but I went off marvelously once I have gained my confidence.

I spent that night on the bed, playing my speech on my head over and over again and comparing mine to the guy who won. I keep thinking about why life has been unfair to me, that the contest was not just about who’s the best. Somehow he appeals more, I guess. It’s not about who has the best English or the best content, it’s maybe about who warms up more to you even before the contest begin? Who has a more catchy opening? It’s all starting to make some sense.

This is what happened during the recent Area Humor & Evaluation Contest for toastmasters, and yes, I won 2nd place. I need regain my momentum and fight back to win the Divisional level. I just need to be better for myself, and everyone else.

Don’t worry. I’m just being a tad dramatic here, one like period, which I do have every now and then. Wish me luck for the next one.

THE 'KITE RUNNER's' 'INFIDELITY CHAIN' made 'EAGLE EYE' 'PUNGGOK RINDUKAN BULAN' 'KAMI'

So, how do you spend a week-long holiday entrapped in the big city – Kuala Lumpur?

Various ways: lepak2 with your boyfriend (check), finish up on those novels which you bought but have not read (check check), watch movies (check check check).

I do have to admit that my Raya was not as glamorous. Wore the new baju kurung on the first day, and that was Raya for me. Wait, I wore the other new baju kurung for a wedding on Saturday night, so I do have another 2 unworn .. opsie.. yeah, I lavishly went on a major shopping spree for 4 baju kurung this year.

So, the two books I read:
THE INFIDELITY CHAIN – a lot of raunchy acts, plots that were quite interesting, good
ending. Not a Must-Have-Book, but definitely the one that kills your boredom on Second Day of Raya

KITE RUNNER – Excellent! A story about family, friendship, war and terror. Finally a book so moving that you’re taken away by the story. A book that made me feels thankful for the tranquility that I enjoy in this country

And the three movies I watched:
EAGLE EYE – Disappointing. Not the Spielberg make that you would expect. A rip off from some other futuristic movie

PUNGGOK RINDUKAN BULAN – I can’t believe Amir Muhammad even had anything to do with it. I lost the story line not even mid-way. And apparently, there were only 3 of us who sat in the big cinema watching the show. I guess everyone else knows better. And here I thought that I am artsy enough to follow this show till the end.

KAMI – Quite good. Love the plot, and love the character Lyn. Suddenly reminded me of Dawson’s Creek. But not the kind of movie to educate you about what these indie acts ie gigs etc all about, more of a movie about teenagers and their many issues. But an enjoyable movie after all.

Work starts Monday (erk.. remember how you used to dread saying that school starts Monday!) Not sure whether I had plenty of rest to begin with, and staying up late just to blog about it.

Good nite everyone (or morning in this case). Look forward for a brand new day tomorrow.

Hati-hati di Jalan Raya

I got the call at 7.01 pm, and had the shocked of my life.

3 of my cousin were on the way for balik kampong, when the Kancil they were driving met with an accident… a head-on collision with a 1 tonne lorry. The driver passed away instantly and the two others were in ICU.

My family were the first to arrive in Hospital Raub that night, as their parents were making their way miles away from Padang Pak Amat, Kelantan and we are the only family living closest. We were told that Izzati was brought to Hospital Temerloh due to her criticality, and the oldest, Sulong is being warded with 1 eyes temporary blinded due to the impact from the broken glasses.

Sulong was still half conscious, but he repeatedly asked about Izzati. He was quite relief knowing that his little sister was all right, but little did he knew about the fate of his younger brother. We didn’t want to break the news there and then.

What was supposed to be a short trip to the hospital, turned into an overnight outing. We spent the next few hours in Raub for sahur, and slept at the back of the car waiting for daylight as we would need to perform Dowe’s last ritual right.

It was not until 11 am that day that solat jenazah with Ayah Chik was performed. It was also when Sulong walked out of the ward, that we told him about Dowe. Never did he expect that his little brother would be the first to go. He watched from afar as Dowe’s body were carried on the van.

I know that somehow he blamed himself. If only he didn’t insisted to go home that evening, or if he had just driven back himself. But things just simply happen, and God had better plan for all of us.

I do not want to elaborate in detail what happen cause I don’t feel like reliving those heartbreaking moments.

But Selamat Hari Raya everyone. Drive safe. Don’t rush.