DEPRESSED

Hey blog,
I am feeling so depressed right now.
I put on a happy face at work, trying to laugh as hard as I can when someone was making even the funniest sound, and put on a brave smile when I saw my friends. Or I guess they were all too busy to notice that I was really... DEPRESSED :(... on the very verge rite now.
What have I been doing today? I kept myself occupied with work and meetings, well, the usual way.
Plus, I've been listening to this song, 'You're Beautiful' over and over again on WMP.

You know what, this is why I don't like to fall in love. This is why I don't like to date guys. Cause I don't think they are honest enough towards me. They all like to make feel vulnerable. It's the sad sappy dilemma.
I guess I won't have problems dating, so why was I rushing.
I should wait for that special someone to surprise me and do something incredibly romantic... or stupid enough to gain my heart. Heck, I won't get a boyfriend till... well, never maybe. All the good ones are always taken. Boys like to rush into things u see.

I hate this feeling. I really hate this. I don't need all this. I was suppose to be telling how happy I was going to Philharmonic yesterday, or my weekend in Penang, but nothing can top this depressing mood I am having right now. PPA review is tomorrow, but I am in no mood to finish it up. Can I just call in sick, and stay in bed the whole day tomorrow?
I do need to take a break. Wan called me up yesterday. I was pouring my heart out and he was there listening... as always. Thanks yeah. I wish I could go to the state next month. I wanted to take time off NOT thinking about work+life related matter.

Ok.. I need to post this song out, cause I love it so much. This was kinda like the time when I fell in love with the song from Pearl Harbour, There You'll Be.. :D.

You're Beautiful
by James Blunt

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

ps.. I have been repeatedly listening to this song since 8.20 pm. Damnit.