Kenangan di Phuket

Phuket was major fun for me, an essential break from the real life and work. Won’t dwell too much into it, but could say that I was so happy that I felt like getting married there and then. A haven for lovers or just mere surroundings that captivated hearts? I spent most of my time alone as none of my friends were available during the day. I was there for quick fun and holliday, while others went there to attend a meeting. I guess I had the most advantage.

My day started with the trip to Phuket town where we first went shopping for 50% discounted souvenirs, then off to take pictures in this huge Budhist temple, and finally to Rang Hill, a famous outing for watching sunset. Next destination was the famous tourist outing in Pakong Beach, where nudists are a such a heavenly sight for some (of course I didn’t get to see any action because of the stupid rain. Ops… ehhhehe). We had a walk along the beach, wonderful dinner and of course, the highlight of the day was when we took tuk-tuk to the hotel. The fresh air at 60km/h, and the loud music coming from the amp was such an experience.

I went to the famous Phi-phi Island the next day. Everyone was being nice as I was the only one without a partner, and I didn’t even went swimming. I guess I wasn’t in the mood. The view was incredible. I guess that was what DiCaprio was saying when he went shooting there. We went to all the places where The Beach and Jurassic Park was shot, me gawk in amazement.

That night… we were as one.

Spent the next day on bed watching movie and ordering room service. Felt like some young spoilt brat too lazy to get her ass doing anything useful. Alas, the day went past so quickly that it was time again to bid farewell to Phuket.

I miss it all… and I really mean ALL.

Picture time:

Selamat Hari Raya.. Maaf Zahir Batin.

I'm bored. :-(

Keluhan Hati aku.. Rindu KAMU... Benci KAMU

This world is full of unfulfill promises.
You might say one thing, and the next thing you know, you are doing exactly what you say you won’t do.
Hypocrites.. It’s a sham that every single being is a pretender in their own way.

I misjudge people, and I do that quite often.
This guy I know whom I thought is a great pal turns out to be such a quack. Today I learnt something new about him, something that I long ago think that he won’t do. He went back on his own word and did ‘it’ anyway. Total failure. Jolly L

At that point of time, I succumb to disappointment. I suddenly missed my best friend who now resides in Minnesota. He would never break his promises. Never would he do things intentionally to hurt me. He understands me deeply that sometimes, I have to secretly admit that he knew me better than I know myself.

A friend whom I can confide with.
A friend whom can read my mind and finish my sentence every time words came crawling out my mouth. Can you believe that.
A friend who would do anything for you.
Where can you find such friend?
A friend whom was someone close to your heart that he stayed through with you even after that hateful breakup.
A friend indeed when a friend is in need.

I guess I missed being pampered.

The consolation part to all this is just that he’s coming home this Raya and I get the chance to spend time with him. It might just be 2 days, but it’s worth the wait.

I miss you BADLY. I hate the world TERRIBLY. Come back soon.

Tidakkah Anda???

Utter loneliness… Quietness… Boredom… What a gloomy life.

Don’t you miss that feeling of missing that special someone?
Don’t you feel that life has not been treating you well?
Don’t you ever think some people are just mean to you?

Don’t think too hard. It’ll just screw up your membrane and left you numb.

Life is just IS.

Cheers,
Anak Pak Sidik.

Suhana Sidik sebagai emcee berjaya. Well Done!

I have survived the endurance test. I have managed to become an emcee for a session with MD. It was tough, but I manage to outlive the day unharm.

It is a day I can be proud of. I might not be the best emcee, they might not call me for a comeback, but at least, I can talk about the experience. I’ve done it! I even threw in 2 of my own question/comment while I was at it. Gila kuasa betul la.

So freaking pissed. Iperintis still haven’t resolved my problem. Dey… I need to check my email la. Dah 3 hari dah ni. Poyo sungguh mereka ini.

Keluhan Hati Orang Yang Sakit Hati

Aku sungguh tension sekali. Komputerku sudah dua hari tidak boleh digunakan. Mengapakah orang Iperintis sungguh lembap, aku pun tidak tahu. Mungkin mereka makan gaji buta semata-mata.

So pissed rite now. You are supposed to cool off during Ramadhan, stop the swearing and berzikir every now and then. I guess Wong would laugh me off and tell me that he's controlling his temper way better than I do… while fasting! Well, stupid Iperintis people haven't come yet to fix my freaking computer. I can't check email, or do proper work just because I don't have the proper tools to operate.

How hard would it be for them to get more lazy bum to work on our computers? Don’t they have KPI to maintain? How long before one person request can be entertain? Why are we paying them again?

Came to think of it, this is P*******! We don’t fire people because it’s atrocious to do so. It’s ok to pay less to the employee because we are semi-government and this is our way of giving back to the country. Come on. This country won’t freaking survive without us. I was at first disappointed when they announce bonus, then I thought, they were pretty smart to give it away during Ramadhan. “Sesungguhnya aku bersyukur dengan apa yang kuterima”, eventhough we have surpass the performance of last year, AND wait, did you say they get more last year? Where is the justice to all this.

Be thankful. I am, don’t get me wrong. But sometimes, it just triggers you. I was an engineer by study, am a planner by profession. What is my future? Most of my engineer friends were thinking of leaving the company after five valuable years of experience and work in Middle East to earn way more than what our company is offering. Should I go back to doing engineering and do the same justice?

How can P******* appreciate the staff? No salary increment or extra bonus in the picture. Na’ah. More benefit? Yeah, that could be it. Other companies are catching up fast. Better promotion? Yeah, no more seniority rules :p

From getting pissed to talking about P*******. See how sick my mind is. I need a holliday badly…..

Cepat la betulkan komputer ini.

Selamat Harijadi to You... Happy Birthday Untuk Awak

This blog is dedicated to a good friend of mine who just turned 25 today. Happy Birthday girl.

This girl is adored by those who knew her. Maybe because of her smooth grace, or her dazzling style that people find appealing. She who makes you glances twice to catch that sweet reflection. Ok, being so gay right now. Felt like wanted to dedicate this blog to her, for all that she’s done to me. She is a friend when I needed one, a friend when I felt lonely, a good friend indeed!

I guess it was destined why I remain single, maybe so that I meet other single people to rock with! Hehe.. But I guess it’s just odd why SHE remain single where plentiful boys out there who would kill to be liked by her. Clock ticking. You’re 25 now girl! Don’t be too picky and too choosy.
Those moments we had:

This is us during Planner Forum. Its like paparazi-celeb photo. Class...

Aku rasa sungguh ayu pada waktu ini. Hehe..

Ini kami lagi...

Anyway, Happy Birthday! I wish you all the best. Muah.....

Satu Lagi Crappy Entry

So, the dilemma ends there.

I can tell you for a certain now that IMN is no longer in the picture. But I wish him all the best with this girl whom I adore. I think they would make a good couple, or are they already.. Hehehe, the sore loser ME.

Anyway, yesterday, was out with Ja and Aima in Shroom for bukak puasa. I had to drag them since I actually had a date with this Indo dude, and was actually quite shy to just go out the two of us. (Can you believe that.. me.. shy.. :p) It turns out that he couldn’t make it cause he overslept, and Suraya also cancelled dinner cause her bf was too shy to join us. Men.. why are they such complicated creature?
Ed join us later with her bf. He reminded me so much of Veddervader and got me thinking hard. Could he be the one that got away? Was I just plain ignorant? Am I mean to do those things I did to him? Stupid stupid me…

My life has not been very interesting lately. Since it’s been budget cycle, I got stuck with pile of endless works. But it went well in the end. I managed to present to CMC and received good credit. At least I didn’t humiliate myself in front of DD, and at least the job is still on the table. I wish I can make my mark in this new position now. Don’t get me wrong, I do like what I’m doing now, it’s just that sometimes people around me complicate things. You would start feeling that they look down upon you, or disregard you just because you are new. ‘Masih hingusan’ la katakan…

I can tell you now that I’ve been feeling very down lately. The big BLW.
1. B……. The other day, my phone went off. Oh, it’s his birthday! I still can’t get over the fat that I got dumped. But, I was never angry at him. I guess I am just not that kind of person. I felt pissed sometimes. I used to over-work to get over this feeling of loneliness. Now, I am just too plain tired.
2. L…….. What is wrong with me? Not attractive enough? I don’t have great personality? The heck with it!
3. W……. I need to change job ASAP or I’ll be stuck here K

End here… Will stop posting this entire annoying story about me and my sad life story in the future. Again, a brand new muah (for how many times already)…
Suhana Sidik.