PGL Was Superb

Love is in the air…. Nomore.

I’m such a bad friend. I missed going to two weddings on Sunday on purpose because I don’t have a partner to go with. I ignore Veddervader completely when he asked whether I want to hang out. And I was too lazy to call up a friend to ask how she was doing. Overall.. total sucker.

Karma..

Yesterday, was trying to get a friend to go with me to watch Puteri Gunung Ledang. Been asking him for two days already and in the end, got ditch. Where are all your boyfriends when you needed them.

I can actually go alone and watch the show. It’ll be like the old days when I go watch movie, or the philharmonic enjoying the symphony… ALONE. Just that, I lack the confidence of driving after the accident. Hence, I can’t gather the courage to live life on my own thus far. I used to drive to Shah Alam ever week, sometimes twice a week out of boredom, but can’t get my lazy ass to do that anymore. Pure stupidity.

So yesterday, nak tak nak, had to ask IMN out (hehe). I need to state for a fact that he is the last person I want to go out with and I am not kidding. But yeah, in a situation like this.. yeah. So anyway, he said yes (my lucky day since he’s only available Tuesday and Thursday this week). I had to treat him for dinner anyway since I lost the World Cup bet.

Had to rush down from office just in time to meet him. I couldn’t be late this time! Need to prove to him that I am no workaholic and I can still live a proper life without working too much @#%w$er@#$.

So anyway, we went out for proper dinner. I made a fool out of myself when I used the wrong knife for steak and ordered a well-done steak that was over-cooked (that’s what well-done is Suhana!). It’s been a while since I last ordered a steak so my table manner was not too compelling. And we got into the argument about what a date really is. I really don’t think that it was a date. Friends hanging out after work is definitely not a date, right! He, who has not been a date (or so he claimed), got confused. And on and on we went. But I couldn’t resist bila dia suap the chocolate cake to me. Argh.. Hehe.. Nothing la. Saja2 aje kitorang buat lawak.

And after that, we went for the play. Since we were early, had the chance to stand in the lobby watching people making grand entry to Istana Budaya. No one caught his interest, likewise, so I guess it was a good start already.

Ok.. PGL… Straight to the point.

The show was superb. The prop was excellent, Gusti Adipati stole the show, Stephen really know how to sing!@!!, and not to forget the marvelous Tiara! Adlin could do better. I guess I expected him to do much better (I have a secret crush on him. Don’t tell him just yet). I was amazed to see the overall coordination of the dance and the play. IMN was constantly trying to seek the best position to doze off, and I kept disturbing him trying to make him stay awake.

The show finished rather late, past my bedtime! Luckily, I was still in shape to drive. Oh, did I told you that IMN freaking love Indonesian girls! Good skin tone, very bold.. definitely wife material. And there I was with mouth wide open. What the… And during dinner he told me ‘workaholic’ aint hot. So, I definitely am not? “No comment”

Guys.. Workaholic not hot ke? I guess I am fairly happy with the fact that I got a merit 2 for PPA since I’ve been working like hell lately. But then again, if I have no life, what is there to enjoy?

Nasihat untuk Teman

She got flare. She got wit. People turn their head when she walks. But why.. why indeed that this particular guy seems to not notice her. It confuses her. More of a reason why she is so into this guy.

It irritates her knowing that this guy is giving her mixed signal. One moment she is very convinced that she’s not ‘clapping with only one hand’.. ewah.. the next, he manage to convert whatever feeling there is to intense coldness. Born stupidity!

Off he went to ‘over-the-sea’ to check out other chix. And she goes on missing him. His last sms seems to cheer her up. ‘I might miss you, but sure it’s not mutual :-(‘ What was she suppose to think. Him leaving her hanging like that.

For some reason, she knows that they are not meant to be. Plenty of obstacles, plenty of reasons to hate him. But, what can you do when your heart long for that special someone, when you suddenly felt nervous around him, when you heart bit a ‘lil faster whenever he drew close, and when you try so hard to dress to impress. She, who you knows to be quite oblivious to others, would now spend the extra 10 minutes that she obviously don’t have to pose in front of the mirror. Bet he never even notice. And he might not even know that she’s a heart-breaker. And now, it’s her turn to get all jump up for another.

She told her friend that she’s going to forget this guy. But, she lied. He is still in her mind. :-( Why oh why….Is it because she’s lonely and needed the attention? But wait, he never did give that extra attention. He cares.. But, was it enough? Sigh.

I guess she’ll have to wait till tomorrow when he’s back (Or is he not?). She’s expecting any sign to indicates that she’s back on the game. But, he hasn’t sms her yet. Did he forget about her? .. And she really thought that he meant it when he said that he’ll misses her.

She hates him for making her feel like this. She hates herself more for being a helpless sucker and a loser. It’s karma. What you did to others… is coming back at you.

What can she do. As a friend, I can always advice her accordingly. But, I can’t help her much you see. It’s a matter of love, and only she can decide what’s best for her. Good luck dear!

Nak Promote Cite

My sister has been nagging and asking me to promo her latest 2 flicks on tv, so here it goes..

GUYS... Lock this in your calender and make sure your decoder is automatically set to this channel at this specific time ait...
1. ----> MONDAY 9 pm TV 2 - Rafflesia 2
2. ----> TUESDAY 9 pm TV 3 - Dua Hati

Well, life as the sister of a TV producer is not at all that glamorous. There were times when I followed her to shootings, mixing around making not-so-funny jokes with celeb, but it was not all that 'FUN'. You see different kind of characters these orang seni has. They are oh-so-nice to me just because my sister freaking produce the shows, but there definitely is some tension off screen. But, enough said.

It was interesting really to see the feedback that I got from friends on the previous show, 'Natasya'. I thought that the show was utter crap. But, people got attracted because the star of the show was the gorgeous Fasha Sandha. Typical male hormone.

For me, their previous soap, 'Raflesia' was a better show. Rita was a good actress, and the script was much better. But I must tell you, I don't really watch Malay shows. Yey, the un-patriotic Suhana. I can't really scale the show to the standard Malaysian has. Remember the ever-famous Sembilu? I thought it was a pure disaster, but I think the actress grab few outstanding performance award. Well, how wrong was I!

So, to those who have watched the show, feel free to drop comments/feedbacks and I'll sure to convey it to my sis the very least. To those who haven't, do .. do watch it and support the Malaysian movie industry ;-p.

Ok, before I end this, lemme post a pic of that someone :-0... Me lor.. yay!

Aku Bosan

Aku bosan.

Haven't been writing for so long, and there's so much to tell. But too lazy to start putting thoughts and experience for the eyes of all. And now contemplating whether I should go to PERMATA to kill off time or go paint someone's room. Hmm.. Tough choices.

Missing IMN still..

Beta berpendapat bahawasanya beta sedang rancak dilamun rasa gundah percintaan bersama sang perawan yang pada mulanya tidak lagi beta sukai. Namun begitu, kecute-an perawan ini membuatkan hati beta terpaut kembali. Perlukah beta meneruskan kekalutan yang menimpa jiwa dan perasaan?

Hek eleh…

You know what, IMN is so cute. Never thought that he can be THAT cute, but he really is! Now I am having second thought, and now I really really misses him. Can't wait to see him tomorrow.. Cheers.

Saya Suka Kamu... Atau TIDAK Lagi

Life has not been very interesting for me these past few weeks. I was busy with the board presentation, didn’t had much for myself and my life, and was struck with runs of bad lucks.

It really made me think about life and what I have done to really deserve this. I am neither too good of a person, or the tail end most worst person in the world. I might have done some stupid things in the past, but none that would be considered a major revamp of my existence.

Since I now commute to work, again, I had time to think about life and future. I hate it when I have time to think, cause I will then think about those things I’ve done (which ain’t a lot), those times I missed (due to working commitment) and those people who used to love me (and dump me in the end). Ain’t a pretty sight indeed.

Yesterday, while commuting to Subang (for futsal hooray..), I had time to think about my boyfriend-less situation. Earlier, I had lunch with this Minnesota guy I knew a while back, and after hearing himself say the same thing, “Ah come on.. Xde boyfriend? Ke you x kasi chance”, I had to re-evaluate my thinking process. Am I that choosy?

Vedder was a nice guy, but I let him go. I could have live a sweet wonderful life with him but I choose not to because there’s some part of him that I cannot accept. Yeah.. I was choosy.

There are also some other guys that seem ok, but never really did get to the part of self-confession. And I didn’t really give them a try – rejecting dinners, not picking up the phone. I guess, I really haven’t achieve that comfort level with them yet.

But there are also guys that I like. So far in these 2 years, there was that guy who played tennis (I like guys who can play tennis.. Ops..), the guy at the gym (who after that had a 4 weeks relationship with me, and didn’t have the guts to tell me at the end that he found someone else), the Petronas guy (who I have no feeling now after I know him much better, and he’s already taken anyway) and last but not least, this other Petronas guy (who I don’t think I want to pursue anymore).

I am just plain tired. It drains out all your emotion and energy you see. But, just to give a scoop on the latest of them all conquest I have right now.

IMN… I guess he does have some minor feelings toward me. It’s just that I feel like I am done waiting for him to profess. I don’t think I want to pursue this anymore, and that was exactly what I had in mind when I commute to Subang yesterday. But then I hit a soft spot when I suddenly received an sms, 5 minutes after I made that impromptu decision. Was it an indicative sign to tell me that he always think of me, or is he not?

Some two weeks ago on one of my hectic day, IMN and me was supposed to go out after work (IMN promised me that he’s gonna treat me for coffee/dinner/whatever) when suddenly, my boss has this last minute meeting with En Jo, and we had to spend the night discussing on the paper to be presented to En Joe the next morning. I made him wait at my compact cubicles for 4 damn long hours (not that I force him or something. He can leave whenever he wants). But, he patiently wait, without a flick of anger. I was pleasantly surprise. He never break promises you see. So, we ended having coffee at around 10 and talked about ex’s and girls/guys we like. Hoo.. Isn’t that indicative enough?

He must have known by now that I have some feelings toward him. Me asking all those stupid questions! Isn’t it obvious enough or is he just oblivious? And whenever I was down, I would sms him. And whenever he’s bored (ha ha), he’ll sms me. Our typical daily routine!

We went out last Friday to Bangsar with another friend of mine, then spend some time at his office (and got kicked out from the building by this rude guard), and we chatted and chatted. It was closest to a date that I could get to spend with him. He would never really ask me out (cause he never ask ppl out!… except that he did ask me out for breakfast and sometimes out for a drink after office hours. eventhough he told me that he doesn’t like to ask others out because he doesn’t like to oblige others to him), and I would NEVER ask him out. Come on.. Me asking some guy I like OUT? Never in a zillion years.

So now how…

I’m just gonna drop this off. With this hectic working schedule that I have, I don’t think I’m gonna have a bf soon. I told Zalia earlier that I am launching this ‘7 Hari Mencari Cinta’ campaign, currently overdue. Now, resetting the timing, and the countdown already started last Monday. At this rate, don’t think it’s possible. 7 days are more like 7 years maybe…

I’m so tense. Don’t have a car right now, hence, not much life. It’s not like I had a life either before.

Argh…. My flow of thoughts are interrupted by the short briefing I had with my boss just now. Damn it. Now in no mood to talk about my sappy life. Better start doing some serious work right now.

Ok diary, I guess I have to log off. And yeah, I’m not gonna think about IMN anymore. Cheers.

Rumusan Hujung Minggu

I think, I am having a crush towards this particular guy. I don't think he's handsome or anything, but the fact that he's giving me mixed confused signal starting to get on my nerve. I don't think that he's the type that I would fall for.. really. He's cold.. very cold. Not really the kind I'd go after. I think I might be liking him because of these two MAJOR reason:
1. I am feeling desperately lonely. Kinda like today (and any other day), when I wanted to go back early and spend time with that special someone, but there's none really.
2. He's not responding well. Hard catch, and I strongly think that he's not that great of a bf. I'm liking him because he's been ignoring me?

But you know what.. He can bake. Hehe.. Guys who can cook is such a turn on.

Anyway, leaving that all behind now.

So, I had a great tiring weekend. It was Agong's birthday on Saturday, so, we at Petronas had the day off on Friday. The fantastic four (aka Myself, Fiza Lonjong, Basman perasan macho and Peter Wongker) drove to PD. Great time it was, that we decided to drive to Malacca (Wongker was absolutely thrill to visit all the historical places... photographer heaven la kononnya). We made a pact. I'll pose, and by the end of the year, he'll be producing my own Calender featuring myself cover page. Hehe.. Corny aint't it. Just that stupid crazy idea I had.

We ate a lot.. And I do mean a lot. The seafood was good, much better than the one we had at Hartamas yesterday. I can't even swallow most of it anyway.

On Sunday, I spent time with my niece and nephew. Argh.. I misses them. I wish I have my own kid, wouldn't it be nice. You've got something to look forward to everytime you go back home. Hmm...

Ok.. I've made up my mind. I want to go back NOW. Tomorrow, I think I would drive to work. Hehe... And tomorrow, I think of going on a date. Anyone?

Rambling thoughts = Cakap Merapu

I am currently listening to 'Sephia' from Sheila on 7 on my WMP. I don't know why, but there's just that special something about this song that makes me felt something deep. When I was hanging out with Vedder sometime ago in Putrajaya, we happen to be listening to some guy singing to this tune. Not sure whether it was the way that he sang the song, or his good looks, either way, it left a deep impact to me. I felt like he was singing from his heart, and there was so much love around. It felt real.

And suddenly out of the blue, I told Madi that I wanted to get married. You know what he said… “Tu la. Dah kahwin nanti mesti menyesal”, “Huh… Nape plak?” I replied back, and he gave the most honest answer, “Cause tak kahwin awal2”.. Good one there. Almost got me! :P

Anyway, today has been very slow for me. Yesterday, I was called up by my boss in the middle of the night to seek one piece of info from the exploration database. As I was the only one with access to the data, and I didn’t have my laptop with me, I had to go back to the office (yeah.. I was already home when my boss called me up) and extract that info. The sad part is, that piece of info turns out to be irrelevant. Me sweating all out to the office for no reason at all.

But the cool thing is, my boss felt the splurge of guilt. He thank me over and over again, and I was even given an appraisal email to be included into my PPA. Even my big boss commented on that. Woo.. I guess the trip was really worth it. Me behind the wheel, and this time, I was actually doing much better.

I didn’t feel like doing much, so I spent time slowly doing some cosmetic to my presentation pack, and spend hours chatting with Iv. We’ve suddenly been chatting more and more these days. That’s a good thing, cause I’ve been feeling very left out lately, I don’t think I’ve hang out much with my buddies. They’ve been very busy these past few weeks, and yeah again, I am boyfriend less, so the loneliness and emptiness IS there. So far, weekends at home is an almost definite.
Hmmmm…

You know what.. The French Open fever is ON! Argh.. But there’s no way I can watch the games. Hmm… Wish I was back in Melbourne, and I would spend countless hours watching the matches. Haven’t spent much time watching TV, even F1. Oh, how I miss schooling, where you would always have time for just about anything, and skipping some classes in between. Ahaks.

I guess you could never get what you wanted. I was chatting with Iv, and one of the interesting topic arising was what it is that you look at a girl/guy. Come on guys.. Think…
Yeah, looks are important, and so is the personality. But I guess for me, it’s simply how much of his bad side that you can tolerate. You can never find someone perfect, so you just had to learn to live with it. Then, it would be just finding a compatible match whom bad behavior you can tolerate. He might not be funny, but at least he’s responsible. He might not be romantic, but at least he cares! Well, not my type though, but these are just the few examples. Sounds pessimistic, but looks very realistic. What is my type? Eh.. Cannot tell. Later, bahaya… I kan cepat cair.

Anyway.. laters……..